Pen and Ink on Bristol Board
When I met my sweet husband Bill he introduced me to a wonderful poem called Evolution, by Langdon Smith. Mr. Smith wrote this poem at the end of the 19th century when the theories of Darwin and many evolutionary biologists were being widely accepted, tried, and perfected by the scientific community. Unfortunately the U.S. and other backward fundamentally religious nations have tried to discredit the beauty of the evolutionary understanding and those who find it to be a beautiful tangible and obvious reality are vilified as God Killers. I do not see it that way but even some in my own family would blatantly deny the many evidences of evolution, especially in our own human species. The ideas threaten a fragile foundation in biblical creationism which relies very much on tradition and rigid literalism to continue to believe. I consider such limitations to be an offront to the beauty of the natural world and a retardation of all creativity, especially scientific study.
As an artist I consider many influences from all past human history to the intricacies of the molecular world. The images of the universe, nanotechnology, the incredible beauty of the fractal patterns emulated in higher math have all touched my creative mind and given me many ideas and dreams that I hope to someday emulate in my art.
The following poem is the most perfect love poem and tells a wonderful story that gives me hope about the future of my own eternal cycle. I no longer believe in the religious beliefs of my relatives but I've replaced and opened my mind to so much more. Evolution and the beauty of our natural world give me great hope, wonder, and insight into the beauty of life in all it's forms. In my most tender of dreams I hold out hope that whatever form my molecular decomposing body takes, or the energy my soul/mind generate in this life will re-invent themselves in something equally beautiful and marvelous. And if my molecules meld with Bill's molecules in some form or another, then I know that we can share an eternal destiny in the cycles of life.
Evolution
By Langdon Smith (1858-1908)
When you were a tadpole and I was a fish
In the Paleozoic time,
And side by side on the ebbing tide
We sprawled through the ooze and slime,
Or skittered with many a caudal flip
Through the depths of the Cambrian fen,
My heart was rife with the joy of life,
For I loved you even then.
Mindless we lived and mindless we loved
And mindless at last we died;
And deep in the rift of the Caradoc drift
We slumbered side by side.
The world turned on in the lathe of time,
The hot lands heaved amain,
Till we caught our breath from the womb of death
And crept into life again.
We were amphibians, scaled and tailed,
And drab as a dead man's hand;
We coiled at ease 'neath the dripping trees
Or trailed through the mud and sand.
Croaking and blind, with our three-clawed feet
Writing a language dumb,
With never a spark in the empty dark
To hint at a life to come.
Yet happy we lived and happy we loved,
And happy we died once more;
Our forms were rolled in the clinging mold
Of a Neocomian shore.
The eons came and the eons fled
And the sleep that wrapped us fast
Was riven away in a newer day
And the night of death was passed.
Then light and swift through the jungle trees
We swung in our airy flights,
Or breathed in the balms of the fronded palms
In the hush of the moonless nights;
And oh! what beautiful years were there
When our hearts clung each to each;
When life was filled and our senses thrilled
In the first faint dawn of speech.
Thus life by life and love by love
We passed through the cycles strange,
And breath by breath and death by death
We followed the chain of change.
Till there came a time in the law of life
When over the nursing sod
The shadows broke and the soul awoke
In a strange, dim dream of God.
I was thewed like an Auroch bull
And tusked like the great cave bear;
And you, my sweet, from head to feet
Were gowned in your glorious hair.
Deep in the gloom of a fireless cave,
When the night fell o'er the plain
And the moon hung red o'er the river bed
We mumbled the bones of the slain.
I flaked a flint to a cutting edge
And shaped it with brutish craft;
I broke a shank from the woodland lank
And fitted it, head and haft;
Than I hid me close to the reedy tarn,
Where the mammoth came to drink;
Through the brawn and bone I drove the stone
And slew him upon the brink.
Loud I howled through the moonlit wastes,
Loud answered our kith and kin;
From west to east to the crimson feast
The clan came tramping in.
O'er joint and gristle and padded hoof
We fought and clawed and tore,
And cheek by jowl with many a growl
We talked the marvel o'er.
I carved that fight on a reindeer bone
With rude and hairy hand;
I pictured his fall on the cavern wall
That men might understand.
For we lived by blood and the right of might
Ere human laws were drawn,
And the age of sin did not begin
Til our brutal tusks were gone.
And that was a million years ago
In a time that no man knows;
Yet here tonight in the mellow light
We sit at Delmonico's.
Your eyes are deep as the Devon springs,
Your hair is dark as jet,
Your years are few, your life is new,
Your soul untried, and yet --
Our trail is on the Kimmeridge clay
And the scarp of the Purbeck flags;
We have left our bones in the Bagshot stones
And deep in the Coralline crags;
Our love is old, our lives are old,
And death shall come amain;
Should it come today, what man may say
We shall not live again?
God wrought our souls from the Tremadoc beds
And furnish’d them wings to fly;
He sowed our spawn in the world's dim dawn,
And I know that it shall not die,
Though cities have sprung above the graves
Where the crook-bone men made war
And the ox-wain creaks o'er the buried caves
Where the mummied mammoths are.
Then as we linger at luncheon here
O'er many a dainty dish,
Let us drink anew to the time when you
Were a tadpole and I was a fish.
